Still heartbroken over the death of Robin Williams. And to think he had manic depression saddens me all the more. As the eldest son of someone diagnosed with manic depression, I’m here to tell you it’s tough on EVERYONE. Family and friends alike. Depression affects not only the person going through it, but their family as well. It’s a full time job to care for someone who’s depressed. Manic depression is a severe case of the illness because you are the extreme of your emotions. You can either be very aggressive towards people, or you completely withdrawal from the world. Depression is nothing to play with. It’s extremely emotionally draining and frightening to care for a parent, or someone you love that is going through it. I watched my own mother go through bouts of depression for years until she was diagnosed. As a kid, I even blamed myself for her condition. The thing people don’t really understand about depression is that it’s an illness, not simply a mental state. Telling someone with depression to go out and find something to do that makes them happy, isn’t going to work. And the only option for many who battle the illness, (manic depression specifically) is medication, which can keep you in a robotic state. So it can be very difficult to communicate with a family member or friend on depressive medication. In Robin Williams case, it’s a scary thought to think that someone can travel the world, perform and bring joy to the hearts of many, and yet feel completely alone. How must he have been feeling? Was his family around? Questions swirl in my mind. We tend to see pictures and expressions of people laughing uncontrollably and smiling, but just because you see people smiling and laughing all the time, doesn’t mean they’re happy. I will remember Robin Williams always as a kind, excitable and youthful soul who brought joy to so many hearts around the world, through his comedy and his heart. Bangarang, Peter. You will be missed immensely.
p.s. - My love and heart go out to all those who feel alone. Please don’t think you’re by yourself. Please know that you are loved and cared for. You are loved. You are so immensely loved. Please believe that. You are important to the world.